It’s not easy being the only dog in a ‘house’ of cats, sometimes. I learned real quick to ignore all the little digs at dogs. Is it a cat thing? I know they love me, and I guess I’m lucky that I can tell that kind of thing, just because we’re all inside the same headspace together and all.

Rhodri would be the first one to tell you I’m the one who said we should make videos. I know he thought about it for sure, but I don’t think they would’ve done it without me. There’s kinda a lot of stuff we wouldn’t’ve done without me, really, I think. I guess I just don’t worry as much about what random strangers think about us! I mean, after all, only we get to define who we are, what we are, and if we’re real, so I don’t see why it should matter so much what people think, especially if they don’t even know us. We know we’re real no matter what. And I really don’t get why it matters if anybody thinks we’re ‘weird’. Isn’t everybody weird? The cool people are weird, anyway.

And now there’s all this stuff that means you don’t even have to show the body or play the voice it comes with, either, so there’s no reason not to now, is there? We can go out there and just.. look more like us, I guess. That’s pretty cool.

I’m not the only one who wants to get out there and perform, but maybe I’m the one who’ll admit it. I just feel like we have a voice, and it should be out there. If you don’t see yourself reflected out there, maybe you put yourself out there instead, you know? Maybe you’ll be the reflection for someone else you’ll never even know.

I was super psyched for the videos at first, like just the videos, and then Rhodri started filming. I mean, it was easier for him to get his face, it’s more human, the rest of us.. it’s just harder, I guess. It was sure harder to get one together for me, at least, and it’s not perfect. I know the little guy didn’t think he’d like doing videos, he was only doing it to humor me I guess, but after he tried it.. I mean, he puts it off a lot of the time, but doesn’t want to quit once he’s going. Same with streaming, now. He does it all the time, and he actually likes it! I’m glad, I’m glad he likes it and isn’t just doing it for me. But I had to find something else to do while I waited to get a face and a voice for the world to see and everything, right? What I wanted to do was music, I guess on some level, I’ve always wanted to, but I didn’t know where to start.

Then Rhodri found this Loopcloud thing, and hey, you don’t have to know how to like, use the complicated programs or play an instrument, you can just put music together! That’s cool and all, and I still use it, I mean, it gives me a place to start, you know, but I like it better when I can make a lot more of it by myself. Gets tricky sometimes. I mean, I just want to make the music, I guess I’m not super patient.  That’s probably not a great thing, and I know I get frustrated when I’m working on it and it’s just not coming together fast enough because something’s wrong, or I feel stuck, but we all have to share time, so it just feels like you gotta make the most of what you get, you know? It’s still super cool I’ve been able to make the music for our trailer and videos and everything, I want to do other music, stuff that’s got a beat and all, not just this background stuff, but I’m still happy doing it behind the scenes. I didn’t expect that, just like he didn’t expect to enjoy being on camera, so I guess we’re all learning, all the time.

Things change all the time, of course. Right now, I’m the music guy and the second on camera guy, and I think that’s a pretty cool place to be, actually.